April 15, 2020
An African American emergency room physician reflects on how "the chaos of emergency medicine" helped her come to terms with a painful past and understand the true nature of healing. Though Harper grew up a member of the Washington, D.C. "black elite," the beautiful homes she shared with her parents held a dark secret: domestic violence. Determined to "fix people" rather than hurt them the way her abusive father hurt her family, Harper became an ER doctor. Her path was difficult. After she accepted her first post-residency job, the man she had met at Harvard and later married walked away from their relationship. Braving a life on her own in a new city, night shifts in an urban hospital, and the life-and-death dramas of the ER ward, Harper began a period of intense soul-searching. Observations of her patients and the struggles they faced taught her abundant lessons in human brokenness--especially her own--and resilience. A newborn baby whose death she could not explain helped her learn to open her heart and truly feel. A white male patient who had committed sexual assault on a female doctor forced the author to push past old memories of her father's abuse and feelings of rage to see a human being in pain. A young black man brought to the ER ward by white police officers who unsuccessfully tried forcing him to submit to medical examination for drugs reminded Harper of her own struggles as a black woman in an overwhelmingly white profession. It also made her realize that "America bears...many layers of racial wounds, both chronic and acute," and that part of her purpose was to continue her fight to promote social healing. Tackling such painful subjects as domestic abuse, trauma, and racism with grace and wisdom, this eloquent book probes the human condition as it chronicles a woman's ever evolving spiritual journey. A profoundly humane memoir from a thoughtful doctor.
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May 1, 2020
Harper, a practiced emergency medicine physician, recounts her experience with patients in various emergency rooms. In addition to lessons learned from these encounters, Harper also shares the intimate details of her complicated upbringing to illustrate how people are broken and how they can heal. There is something relatable and illuminating in every story here, and this memoir's honesty and compassion proves it is possible to mend brokenness. Harper offers a guide to healing from hardship, and her ability to humanize every patient makes the insight she shares invaluable. Whether describing a physical, emotional, or mental break, Harper makes a convincing case that there is beauty throughout difficult times. For readers grappling with various challenges, Harper's words inspire hope and understanding of the importance of finding peace and acceptance of the past. VERDICT Poignant, helpful, and encouraging, Harper's lessons from life in and outside of the emergency room ultimately teach readers how to trust the healing process.--Rich McIntyre Jr., UConn Health Sciences Lib., Farmington
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Starred review from May 11, 2020
In this compassionate memoir, Harper, an African-American ER physician, reflects upon her career, sharing stories that take the reader “into the chaos of emergency medicine.” Growing up as a member of Washington, D.C.’s “black elite,” Harper, whose father was also a physician, lived with the dark secret of his domestic abuse, her days “routinely punctuated by bursts of violence.” When her brother John’s hand is injured in a fight with their father, she takes him to the ER. Seeing the ER, a place “so quiet and yet so throbbing with life,” inspires her to become a doctor. Upon graduating from Harvard, Harper lives and works in New York City with her husband (also a Harvard grad), but when she accepts her first post-residency in Philadelphia, the marriage dissolves when her independent filmmaker husband declares that he needs to focus on his career and “find himself.” While devastating, the divorce allowed her to immerse herself in her position as the director of performance improvement in the ER. Taking on the painful topics of trauma, domestic abuse, and the “ubiquitous microaggressions faced by people of color,” especially in the medical profession, Harper seeks to understand the human condition and persistent societal issues that impact care in urban hospitals. Harper witnesses the resilience of the human spirit of her patients and begins her own process of self-healing through yoga and meditation. This powerful story will resonate with readers, especially physicians.
June 1, 2020
From the start, Harper claims that she has no special powers, nor does she know how to handle death any better than you. But as an ER physician, she certainly has confronted the grim reaper far more often than most. In this compelling, firsthand memoir, she offers a portrait of life on the medical frontlines as seen from a female and African American perspective. She recounts her life?a privileged upbringing in Washington, D.C. (although one punctuated by violence), a marriage that fell apart, medical school, and a new city and fresh start?yet it is patients she focuses on: a newborn with no pulse; a patient who, without warning, punches her in the face; a young woman serving in the military in Afghanistan who was raped by her commanding officer. Bearing witness to human suffering day after day takes its physical and emotional toll, Harper admits, but, as a healer, she also considers brokenness to be a remarkable gift. In this time of heroic nurses fighting a pandemic, Harper allows readers to experience the healing process through her knowing eyes.(Reprinted with permission of Booklist, copyright 2020, American Library Association.)